hi karan , what is happened in past is passed. Now there is no use of it. From all of this u r not only losing ur life but also becoming a reason for others life. Think about ur future , i know it is difficult to forget our loved once but we should not always worry about that. So try to live with ur family and with ur wife. As time is moving day by day u will realise everything that u wasted ur little time from all of this. try to be a good husband and good son because now any other will not be with u always except them.