Hi sister, why do u think that u don’t have any life in future….? I can understand that u have struggled for some time but the thing u should know , that nobody have perfect life in the world. So what makes u to think that u have Wasted ur life…..? U has to know that u have many gifts in life that even many even cannot got that. Your life is very precious , i know that till now u have helped many so u r not wasted ur life sister. Thats because of some forces u r thinking like that. So don’t get any depression about others. Financially today u may struggle but time will not be the same forever….