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wallflower
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prachi wrote:
wallflower wrote:
I am 21 years old and don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve never developed any hobby and easily get bored of any new thing that i try. Even during exams I get so bored that I stop midway in the paper and leave the hall even though I know the answers. I want to do something with my life like others. Everyone seems to be so engaged in their life unlike me.
Whenever I try to explain this to others everyone takes it as a joke as I have developed a habit of covering everything with humor because I know they are not going to understand. Its not like I am dumb or something…I’ve never failed(I don’t have any clue why?)…presently doing B.Tech(just because all my friends opted for it and parents referred it). My friends teach me 1 hr before exam so that I could pass. They say I have got a very sharp mind because I grasp things very fast. They say-not even studying for 1 minute a day I’ve more knowledge than them…it’s just that I don’t know how to use it. Well same is the opinion of my family. My mother keeps reminding me of my intellectual moments from my childhood and that my father expected so much from me and I’ve disappointed him.
I don’t know how to explain them that I don’t have any passion..I just can’t help it and this troubles me more than them. You’ll be surprised to know(like my friends) that i never had a crush in my life. Before you let your mind to some wrong notion let me tell you I admire boys but like everything else I don’t fall for them(or to say get bored of them too).

Dear Wallflower,

You certainly have a unique situation! Despite possessing high intelligence, a good set of friends and family etc. you seem to lack the passion in life. You seem to lack a goal, an aim that drives you. What I would like to know is, did you always feel this way right from childhood or did this feeling of aimlessness and lack of passion develop sometime later in life? If later, then when..did something trigger it? Tell me this much and then maybe I can help you further. Also, if you don’t mind, could you tell me which city you live in…just in case I feel that you need to be referred to someone face to face…would you consider that option?

hello ma’am
Thanks for your reply.
As per your queries- i never had any particular goal or something in my life but yes previously i did jobs which i were required to do and with time this trait has disappeared because i don’t find them either interesting or of any use. I just don’t worry of consequences. For example 3 days from now there is placement drive in my college and everyone is busy preparing but my case is different(I’ve not touched my book). Yes, I don’t know how i have been made eligible for this placement thing.
I live in Allahabad. I hope you have got some solution for my problem.
As for now I know i am going to embarrass myself after 3 days.