Whenever I try to explain this to others everyone takes it as a joke as I have developed a habit of covering everything with humor because I know they are not going to understand. Its not like I am dumb or something…I’ve never failed(I don’t have any clue why?)…presently doing B.Tech(just because all my friends opted for it and parents referred it). My friends teach me 1 hr before exam so that I could pass. They say I have got a very sharp mind because I grasp things very fast. They say-not even studying for 1 minute a day I’ve more knowledge than them…it’s just that I don’t know how to use it. Well same is the opinion of my family. My mother keeps reminding me of my intellectual moments from my childhood and that my father expected so much from me and I’ve disappointed him.
I don’t know how to explain them that I don’t have any passion..I just can’t help it and this troubles me more than them. You’ll be surprised to know(like my friends) that i never had a crush in my life. Before you let your mind to some wrong notion let me tell you I admire boys but like everything else I don’t fall for them(or to say get bored of them too).
You certainly have a unique situation! Despite possessing high intelligence, a good set of friends and family etc. you seem to lack the passion in life. You seem to lack a goal, an aim that drives you. What I would like to know is, did you always feel this way right from childhood or did this feeling of aimlessness and lack of passion develop sometime later in life? If later, then when..did something trigger it? Tell me this much and then maybe I can help you further. Also, if you don’t mind, could you tell me which city you live in…just in case I feel that you need to be referred to someone face to face…would you consider that option?