#15600

Confusedlikehell
Participant

Hey i totally understand your state of mind… Im 21 too and am actually dating two guys… One with whom i’ve had sex(A)… Another whom i’ve made out with in every possible place(B)… I don’t know why i can’t just stick to one… I like A more but he is in another place right now pursuing his career… And B, the guy im presently dating behind the other guy’s back knows all about A… Then sometimes i just end up feeling like its just sexual and im not in love with either… But i cannot bear to imagine breaking up A… I have imagined an entire life with him… But B is just so sweet and loving and we bond so much… Almost read each other’s thoughts… Its not the same with A though… I cant be myself around him… I just try to please him… Even the sex was to please him… I enjoyed it too… Im so confused… Can’t share all this with anyone for fear of being judged… Except B… Who loves me immensely and is actually supportive of me even at this stage… He leaves the choice upto me… I sometimes think i should just leave both and remain a spinster… Feel like a using bitch