You have gone through so much pain. I cannot even begin to imagine how you got through this. But you did so this shows me that you’re really brave. About feeling no emotions, sometimes when we go through so much pain our mind dissociates a part of us to ‘protect’ ourselves. It separates us from trauma and when this is prolonged, it starts to affect the non-traumatic areas too, that’s why you feel no pleasure either. Another reason could be the medications you have taken in the past. Sometimes they tend to ‘numb’ the intensity of emotions. Going back to counseling would definitely be a good option. Do you have a regular therapist? Would you like to give it a try with me? If you want to, you can contact me on my personal ID [email protected].
I will look forward to hearing from you