Its nice that you found the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. But does he feel the same way? If he doesn’t, how will you be happy? Take it slow. Give him some time. But why is he dating you if he doesn’t want to take this to the next level? If you aren’t the type to date without commitments, you should put an end to this. If this is something that isn’t so serious carry on till you can. Don’t think of marriage now. He isn’t ready. And you aren’t too old to find a groom. You have enough time to find Mr. Right.