jst take out the fear from u..do anulom vilom…and jst do thngs that mak u happiest,,,listening music, say writiing…say painting..talking to frnds…playing wd ur little one…..
u r doing yoga to get calm..u r taking mediceine to b calm…y not do somthng that make u happy then u wd not need any thng…yoga…for health is good…but wen mind is nt relaxed all is fake..
try forget thngs u r over with,,,thnk u r a responsible human…u r a father..who hold his child future..u cnt think of suiciding…
evrybdy has his destiny,,ur sis…ur bro..all…so stop blaming urself..instead try helping them if ever they need u..
also….stop these medications..thy r drawing u more towards insanity…y not start afresh..thnk u did sumthn that was past….after all u didn t KILL somebdy? let bygones b bygones.
ur wife loves u ..ur baby depends on u….start new..stay happy…thnk u puke to every person or song..or any entity on this universe that reminds u of ur silly past.
ur LIFE is today in PRESENT…past is gone..smile and say bye bye to all .who r with u appreciate and who all tease u…..spit on it…and ignore..as u must not know even pplwho tease others hav a strange past…..the r losers.