I am not really sure what to say except that I am going through the same thing. It ended four months ago. And I understand. It sucks to have these thoughts. Its like stuck there and you can’t move on. Its Luke a record playing over and over again. Personally, your message scares me. I am in this whirlpool and I hope I don’t remain stuck there. The only point I can think of…is..that our egos shouldn’t have to go through that rejection all over again.