Dear Pratiksha,
I’m so glad you’ve come to us before its too late. After reading your problems I really think you should get some professional help as soon as possible. Can you tell me which city you live in? I can help you locate the right therapist for u. We cannot proceed online yet because first I need a complete assessment of your mental and emotional state (think of it like a blood test report you take to a physician for fever). After reading that assessment I shall be able to make an effective plan to help you.

I hope to hear from you soon.
Take care.